Ok so not to brag, but the other day I was having a REALLY good hair day. I rarely do my hair, which is long and straight, and I am content just throwing it into a messy bun for work. I much prefer the few extra minutes of sleep I can get over dedicating time to my hair when I am not really trying to impress anyone. Our office has a super casual environment and messy buns are “in” anyway so who cares?
Well, on Thursday, I had an event that night which I needed to be ready for when I left the house in the morning. So I got dressed into a cute blouse and jeans, and styled and teased my hair and held it back with a cute new headband I got from the Lauren Conrad collection at Kohl’s. Kohl’s has the BEST cheap jewelery by the way. As I walked around the office, I noticed a little spring in my step. I was parading around with an air of confidence I hadn’t felt in a long time. Instead of hoping that no one would notice me and my weight, as I usually do, I wanted people to see me.
One of the hardest things I find about dieting is the balancing act between motivation to change, and still loving and embracing who you are currently. In reality, I know I should be viewing this journey as a lifestyle change to be healthier, and not a diet just to get skinny and look good on the outside, but I admit that some days are just harder than others to remember that. My goal is to lose a lot of weight and I would be completely lying if I said a huge portion of my motivation wasn’t to be happier with the way I look. There are plenty of days when I hate how I look and the viscous cycle of staying motivated while I’m down on myself can be hard to beat.
That is why I wanted to talk about my fab hair day. I felt really good about myself and in turn, was in a great mood, and wanted to keep that vibe going. The conversation happening in my head was like, “Wow, I feel great about myself today. How can I continue to feel great about myself? I should eat a healthy lunch, so I can feel great again tomorrow!”. Putting in the effort on my appearance gave me a confidence boost and helped me remember that I am awesome and beautiful NOW, and it’s not just some thing in the future I have to look forward to. And because I was cognicent of that fact, I was definitely more motivated to make good choices because that future me seemed more realistic. I find it hard to imagine being 80 pounds lighter when I am in oversized sweats and a messy pony tail, and contributing to my own poor self-esteem.
I know that beauty is internal, and my diet will never succeed if I am only focused on external factors. But I have to say, I will definitely be waking up earlier to style my hair in the mornings from now on 😉