Time to get real for a minute!
I started this blog/journey about 3 weeks ago, and I had a vision in my head that the pounds would just start falling off right away, and I would have lots of positive things to post about. That has not been the case, although I have lost a couple of pounds, I am nowhere close to where I would like to be.
One of my favorite things to do when I am feeling stuck is to journal. It amazes me how I can see things in a new light, or resolve a problem I am having, or just get to the bottom of my feelings. Letting words flow onto the paper is like talking to someone I really trust, where I can let everything come out truthfully without a filter. So with the frustration I was feeling about the start of this journey, I took pen to paper.
I never realized it before, but I think I use food as a stress reliever. So much of our time is spent “adulting” or just trying to navigate life’s challenges. We work hard for 40 (hah, more like 50) hours a week, we pay our bills on time, we upkeep our houses, take care of family members, and the list goes on and on. It makes sense that enjoying a nice meal helps relieve some of that tension that gets built up. For me, food is a way of letting go – no one is controlling what I eat and I am not compelled by anything in that moment except the enjoyment of the food I am eating.
So now, faced with the challenge of limiting my food intake, I am starting to see where I get caught up. If I have a particularly stressful day or week, all I want to do is go home and hop into a pair of sweats, and dig into some comfort food. Not being able to do this means I have to find other ways to relieve stress before I will be able to really get past the temptation to eat away my day. I haven’t found an exact solution just yet but I think realizing this was a huge step!
I can’t recommend journaling enough, especially if you are facing a problem and just don’t know where to start. I am sure I will face many more challenges along the way and I am glad I have that tool at my disposal to really put those challenges in perspective and to understand them better. For now, I am glad to have crossed one small hurdle that will help change my lifestyle, and not just serve as a quick fix to lose a couple pounds.